Release Day | Love is Free

It’s released day!!! 🥳 Love is Free is out today, and I’m one of 52 authors who’s written a short story for this charity anthology. ALL the proceeds will go to the American Civil Liberties Union (ACLU) to support their work for protecting the freedom of the American people. 

Only a day or two after the US election, JMS Books put together an in-house call with the ambition to have the anthology ready for the inauguration week, and we did it! Authors, editors, and publisher have all been working for free to make this happen. 

It’s surreal, isn’t it? 2025 and we have to try to save human rights in the US. I’m still stunned at how we got here. How the hell could we end up here?! Has history taught us nothing? Tragic, but if you’re looking for an escape, here are 52 stories to help distract you for a bit. 

Love is Free

It’s hard to believe we have entered the year 2025 with so many of our civil liberties, which we fought so hard to achieve, now on the cusp of being taken away.

The political scene in the United States, as well as in many other countries, has become more polarized in recent years. In the aftermath of the US 2024 presidential election, many of us have found it difficult to express our fears and concerns. Regardless of nationality, the authors of JMS Books sought an outlet for their emotions; thus, this anthology of short stories was created.

Love Is Free celebrates queer love in all its forms, proving love can survive despite adversity. Whether a quiet night in or a loud night out, in this world or another, in the past, present, or future, this collection embraces how enduring same sex love can be, in any and every shade under the LGBTQIA umbrella.

Featuring never before published work from 52 authors, Love Is Free is a collaborative effort whose entire proceeds will go to the American Civil Liberties Union (ACLU) to help with their work protecting the freedoms of all people in the US. All the work in the collection, including the editing, has been donated. This stunning anthology will be a charitable keepsake whose message of love regardless of gender will endure beyond the current political strife threatening to tear us apart.

Authors included in this anthology are: Adam Carpenter, Alexandra Caluen, Amy Spector, Anne Russo, Becky Black, Carol Holland March, Charles Payseur, D.J. Fronimos and Elke Lakey, David Connor and E.F. Mulder, Dianne Hartsock, Drew Hunt, E.M. Schenker, Ellie Thomas, Emery C. Walters, Eule Grey, Feral Sephrian, Gareth Vaughn, Gordon Phillips, Hannah Morse, Holly Day, J.D. Walker, J.M. Snyder, J.T. Marie, Jordan Demaine, Justin James, K.L. Noone, K.S. Murphy, Katey Hawthorne, Kim Davis, Kris T. Bethke, La Toya Hankins, Mere Rain, Michael P. Thomas, Mychael Black, Nell Iris, Ofelia Gränd, Pat Henshaw, Patrick Bryce Wright, Pelaam, Rafe Jadison, Ray Hatch, Red Haircrow, Sarah Hadley Brook, Scarlet Blackwell, Sean Cunningham, Shawn Bailey, Shawn Lane, T.J. Blackley, T.K. Dane, Teal H.S. Fields, Vivien Dean, and Warren Rochelle.

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Excerpt:

(From The Gloves Are Off by Ofelia Gränd)

They’d been best friends since Hector had moved to town when they’d been nine. He’d been a scrawny kid, and his dark eyes had bounced around every room he entered as if he suspected a monster would jump out of the walls at any time.

Trae had wanted to hug him.

It hadn’t stopped. He still wanted to hug him.

They’d hung out almost every day since the first time Hector entered the classroom, and Trae didn’t think he could function without him. These last couple of years, he’d been forced to. They’d had periods before when school or work had forced them apart, but then they’d spent hours on the phone every day to make up for the physical distance.

It had stopped when Hector met Kaden King.

Alliterations in names was a huge red flag, and Trae was shocked Hector didn’t know.

He blamed himself. He’d been away when it happened. Teagan, his sister, had slipped on the ice and broken her leg, so he’d taken time off work to help with the kids, but she lived in Hartley, so he hadn’t been able to see Hector.

Instead of the visits Trae had counted on, Hector had hooked up with Kaden fucking King, and ever since then—going on two years now—Trae had tried to come up with ways to kill someone without getting caught and without making Hector sad.

The last thing he wanted was to make Hector sad. That was Kaden’s job. And a great job he did. Fucker.

Trae wanted to grab Hector’s shoulders and shake him until the scrambled pieces in his brain fell back into place. The Hector he knew was cautious, but not to the point of trembling at the risk of making a mistake. He double-checked things, but he didn’t fifteen-check them. He dressed to blend in, not to be invisible.

Kaden fucking King had turned the brilliant treasure that was Hector Cyr into a quivering ghost, and Trae was powerless.

Every time he tried to talk to Hector about it, he made excuses. Claiming Trae imagined things, insisted Kaden was stressed about work, swore he’d forgotten to cancel the date he and Hector was going on and hadn’t meant to leave him waiting at the table at the restaurant. And so on.

If Trae squinted, he believed he’d be able to make out the invisible claws Kaden had buried in Hector’s brain.

Sometimes he’d get Hector to admit things weren’t great, but he was loyal to a fault, and he’d write it off as a rough patch in the relationship.

Trae was aware all relationships had their ups and downs, but they shouldn’t be as much work as theirs was.

Hector gave and gave and gave, and Kaden sometimes dropped a breadcrumb of affection. Watching Hector treat the dried-up, discarded scrap like a treasure twisted something inside Trae.

He wanted Hector. Wanted to make him his. And he’d never ever make him doubt his worth. Fucking Kaden.

Trae growled in the dark of the car and signaled to turn off the highway toward Landown. Only a few more minutes. He glanced at the clock. He’d have time to swing by his apartment and change clothes. He liked the suit he wore, but he was more of a jeans and T-shirt kind of guy.

His boss would be pissed about him leaving the conference early, but he didn’t care. Hector’s birthday was more important.

He took another turn as his phone rang. Hector. A glance in the rearview mirror showed a car in the distance. He flicked on the indicator and turned out on the shoulder of the road and accepted the call.

Happy birthday!”

Oh… eh… thanks.” His voice was off, and Trae instantly went on alert.

What’s up?”

I’m… eh… Can I borrow some money?”

Trae wasn’t sure he heard him correctly. They weren’t rich, neither of them, but they weren’t on the brink of starving either. Since they’d finished school, there had always been room for emergencies in Hector’s budget.

When Trae didn’t reply, Hector hurried along. His words coming so fast, Trae had to concentrate to make them out. It didn’t help when he spoke in a whisper that got eaten by the background noise. “It’s okay if you can’t. I might be able to get an invoice or something.”

What’s going on?”

Hector sighed. “I’m at The Harbour. I took a cab here, and now I don’t have enough to pay for the food.”

Trae ground his teeth but turned back out on the road again. Hopefully, he wouldn’t come across any cops.

He checked his mirrors and used his elbow to steer as he shifted gears. “What about Kaden?”

Silence.

Trae checked the phone to make sure the call hadn’t cut off.

Ugh, this is so humiliating. The waitress walked past my table again. It’s the third time in like two minutes.”

Where is Kaden?” He stepped on the gas pedal a little harder.

Hector sighed. “He booked the table, said he wanted to take me out for my birthday. Do something nice, you know.”

Mhm.”

Then earlier today, he texted and said he’d be late, so could I get there on my own.” Silence followed. Hector didn’t have a driver’s license and lived outside of town in the opposite direction of the harbor.

And?”

Another deep breath. “And I took a cab.”

Okay.”

I assumed he’d drive me home… or we’d walk to his place.”

Trae nodded and steered toward town. Kaden had an apartment right in the middle of Landown. He’d drive past it on his way to the restaurant.

He made a sound to get Hector to continue.

When I’d waited for forty-five minutes, the waitress said I had to either order or leave since there were others who wanted the table after us.”

Trae winced. He’d waited for the dickhead for forty-five fucking minutes. “And now you need money for a cab back home?”

No. Or yeah, I guess, but I ordered.”

You ordered?”

I was sure he was gonna show. I called several times, but he either sent it to voice mail or I’d get one of those default texts saying he’d call me later.”

Trae’s hold on the phone tightened.

But now they’re making me leave, and I have to pay for the food. And I had a glass of wine while I was waiting.”

Trae was too pissed to come up with anything to say.

Trae?” Hector’s voice broke on the one word.

I’m here, I’m here, babe.” He winced. They didn’t call each other babe or any other endearments.

Release Day | The Magic of Shoes

It’s release day!!! 🥳 The Magic of Shoes is out today!   

There was a submission call titled If the Shoe Fits that asked for queer stories featuring shoes, and I thought it sounded fun.   

I like shoes. If I have to shop for something, shoes are probably my favorite thing, but… they have to be comfy. I refuse to walk around in uncomfortable shoes. You’ll never catch me in heels. Never. And if the shoes happen to be waterproof, all the better since I walk a lot, and most often in terrain.  

That doesn’t mean I don’t appreciate a nice shoe, though. And just like Clay, I find French heels delightful 😁  

This is a short, silly, contemporary story about Clay who works in a shoe shop. One day when he gets back after his lunch break, there is a body on the floor dressed in nothing but a pair of French heels. Not the best day of his life… 

The Magic of Shoes

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Clay Tibor loves a wicked French heel, but not when the shoe is attached to a dead body sprawled on the floor of the shoe shop where he’s working. Two weeks ago, the owner of the shop passed away, and Clay now works for his son, Nathan. Nathan might be hot, but he knows nothing about shoes. Clay wished it was his biggest problem, but shoe ignorance is a mere inconvenience compared to being accused of murder.  

Nathan’s brother, who is technically co-owner of the shoe shop, is a cop who is convinced Clay did it. To increase his chances of having a proper alibi should something else happen, Clay would do best to stay glued to Nathan’s side twenty-four-seven. Right? 

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Contemporary Gay Romance: 15,879 words

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Excerpt:

Chapter 1

Clay Tibor unlocked the front door to The Polished Countess, the vintage shoe store where he’d been working for the last thirteen years, and came to a stumbling stop inside.

A lovely black Victorian button boot with a French heel and nine buttons lay on the floor. The calf coming out of the leather was bare, and while Clay firmly believed in liberating shoes from gender norms, a man’s leg wasn’t what he had expected to see. Maybe he wasn’t as free-thinking as he’d believed.

Nathan!”

No reply. Fuck. Was he still out on lunch? Clay had been away for longer than he should, so, Nathan should be back, right? The door would’ve been unlocked if Nathan had been here.

He stepped forward, and more of the body came into view. A naked man, face-down. The man’s hair was dark and tousled as if he needed a haircut, and he had a tattoo of one black and one white snake tangling together on his left forearm.

And he was naked.

Nathan!”

Clay didn’t want to be the one who dealt with this. He nudged the man with his 1460 Pascal Floral Mash Up Dr. Martens.

Nothing.

Fuck. He should check for a pulse, right?

He yelped as the door opened behind him, and Nathan stepped in with a wrapped burger in his hand. He came to an abrupt stop much like Clay had.

What the fuck did you do?” He looked between the body and Clay.

I didn’t do anything. He was here when I came in.”

Nathan scowled at him. Two weeks ago, Walter Tallman passed away after a short illness. Clay hadn’t been prepared. He’d spent almost every day for over a decade together with Old Man Tallman, and while he was a grump, he had known shoes.

His two sons, Jeffrey and Nathan, had inherited The Polished Countess. Clay suspected he’d be fired any day now.

Most likely today.

Jeffrey worked in law enforcement. Clay wasn’t entirely sure what he did, but he was most often dressed in a suit, so something important, whereas Nathan had been out of work when Walter had passed. Since then, Clay had been forced to spend his days with Nathan, who was as grumpy as Walter had been with the downside of knowing nothing about shoes.

I locked the door. There was no one here.”

Clay glared at him. “And you think I somehow managed to get him in here? A dead man. Naked. Dressed in Victorian shoes. We don’t stock those shoes.” Which was a shame because they were beautiful.

Nathan gave him an assessing look that shouldn’t make him shiver. “It would surprise me. He probably stumbled in here on his own accord.”

How? The door was locked.” And people would’ve noticed a naked man walking around on the street in nothing but a pair of vintage shoes—women’s shoes if they were adhering to gender norms.

The door opened again. Clay swallowed a yelp as a shriek filled the air. A woman in her late fifties to early sixties kept shrieking for way longer than should’ve been possible. Clay recognized her. She’d been in before.

When she finally quieted, she looked between Clay and Nathan. “Is he dead?”

Clay shrugged. “Don’t know.”

You don’t—” Nathan sighed and pushed the wrapped burger against Clay’s chest. “Hold this.”

Hey! I don’t want to get grease—”

Hold it, and call Jeffrey.” Nathan crouched next to the body and touched it only to jerk his hand away. Then he groaned and flipped the body over.

Hey!” Clay took a step back and bumped into the woman. Then he saw it. The man had a Barbie Ken Doll bulge. “What the…”

It’s a doll.” Nathan glowered at him. “Very funny, Clay.”

If he hadn’t been a coward and had checked on the man, he’d have known. The hair looked real, the face did not. “I didn’t do it.” He spoke way softer than he’d meant to. Nathan deserved to be yelled at, but there was something extremely creepy about having a naked, life-sized doll splayed on the shop floor.

It’s not April Fool’s Day, right?” He looked at the woman.

January eleventh, dear.”

Damn.”

Nathan narrowed his eyes. “You can confess now.”

I didn’t do it, asshole! I left before you did. You locked the door, remember?”

Nathan flew to his feet. “Yes, but you came back before I did.”

A few seconds before you did.”

If it had been only a few seconds, I’d have seen when you entered the store. I walked from the bottom of the street.” He pointed at the burger which was from the joint at the corner of the block.

Can’t have been more than a minute.”

When Nathan took a step forward, Clay took one back. He wouldn’t stand a chance against Nathan if things turned physical, and he had been beaten enough times to know he didn’t enjoy it.

Nathan froze, then took a step back, some of the anger leaving his eyes.

Don’t you have a surveillance camera?” The woman looked between them.

Mr. Tallman didn’t like cameras.” Clay had suggested it more than once, along with a security alarm, but Walter had nixed it.

Nathan scoffed.

Then you better call someone. If there’s been a break and enter, the police should know about it and perhaps the other shop owners on the street too.”

Right, Clay remembered her now. She was a hairdresser with a shop farther down the street. Across from the burger joint.

I’ll call Jeffrey.” Nathan grabbed his phone. “Eat.” He pointed at the burger.

What?”

Eat it.”

Clay’s stomach chose that moment to rumble. “I… don’t eat meat.” He’d told Nathan the first week he’d worked there, or the first week Clay had worked for him, when he’d suggested they’d go on a Mongolian BBQ buffet for lunch. Nathan had scoffed and gone to have Mongolian BBQ on his own.

It’s a halloumi spicy avocado pickled onion and jalapeno thing. So not a real burger.”

Aww. “And you got it for me?”

Nathan didn’t look at him. “You said you hadn’t had breakfast, and I bet you didn’t eat on the lunch break.”

No, he hadn’t. He’d promised to walk Edgar, Anna’s lazy pug, on his lunch breaks this week. She was off on a conference or course or whatever. She came home to sleep at night, but normally she was able to bring Edgar to work. One perk of being a veterinary assistant.

He glanced at Nathan. Maybe he’d be okay with Edgar in the store. The poor little fellow was all alone in the apartment.

Eat.” Nathan still didn’t look at him as he walked past the counter and continued into the office.

* * * *

So you didn’t see anyone leave the shop?” Jeffrey Tallman, Nathan’s brother, and technically as much of Clay’s boss as Nathan was—at least until they’d solved everything concerning the estate—held a pen against a notepad while waiting for an answer.

After everything was done with the estate, Clay fully expected to be out of work. Neither of the Tallman brothers understood the need for shoes.

Or, they wore shoes, so they understood the need for them, but they didn’t see the souls of shoes, didn’t feel the magic. Clay glanced at Jeffrey’s black penny loafers and sighed. Soulless. There was nothing wrong with penny loafers. Some men pulled off penny loafers more than well, but he had the feeling Jeffrey had grabbed them off a rack, checked the size, and bought them without forming a connection to them.

Clay!”

He jumped. “Sorry, what?”

Did you see anyone leave the shop?”

He shook his head and shoved the last bit of the halloumi burger into his mouth. He should think nicer thoughts about Nathan. No one had ever wanted to feed him, and it made him all warm and fuzzy inside.

Where were you on your lunch break?”

Clay frowned at him. He’d already told him. “I went to Anna’s and took Edgar for a walk.”

When did you leave here? How long were you gone? When did you come back?”

I think I want to talk to a real cop. You’re not listening to me.”

Nathan groaned from behind the counter.

I am a real cop.”

Clay scrunched his face. “I don’t believe you. Either way—” He hurried on when Jeffrey was about to object. “—you’re too close to this. I don’t think you’re allowed to investigate your own family.”

Jeffrey blinked owlishly at him, and Nathan muttered something he couldn’t hear.

There is a doll on the floor. I don’t think anyone will be upset about me asking a few questions. I don’t know what you think will happen, but there won’t be a lot of manpower invested in this. I suspect this is it since we have nothing to go on.”

Won’t you at least dust him for prints?”

Jeffrey stared at him for several seconds. “When did you leave for lunch?”

Clay sighed and glanced at Nathan. “A quarter to twelve, perhaps?”

Eleven forty-eight.”

Clay gestured at Nathan. “See I have a witness. Eleven forty-eight.”

And you went…?”

To Anna’s.”

Jeffrey didn’t write anything on his notepad. “Where does she live?”

Parkside Row. In the old white stone house.”

She has an apartment there?”

Since the entire house was made up of apartments, he shouldn’t have to answer. “Yes, third floor.”

And what did you do when there?”

Clay frowned at him. “Grabbed Edgar. We walked in the park until I had to rush back here.”

And when you walked back here, what did you do?”

Clay tried to remember. “Well… I came from the park, right? And in front of me was a woman in vintage aviator boots, or I’m sure they were a reproduction, but we should see if we could get something similar in stock. Brown leather, lace-up, speed hooks. I’d say a replica from the 1930s, but it could be the twenties too. Anyway, we should—”

Both Jeffrey and Nathan groaned, and Clay looked between them.

When you weren’t studying some poor woman’s shoes, what did you notice?”

Clay shrugged. “Her gait was a little uneven, and one of the heels—”

Not about her shoes! Anything else.” Jeffrey’s sharp tone had Clay snapping his mouth shut.

Eh… it’s chillier than it looks outside.”

Clay wouldn’t call the sound coming from Nathan a laugh, more like a sound of disbelief. Jeffrey closed his eyes for a moment.

Look, Clay, I know there isn’t much going on inside your head, or maybe there is too much going on, but could you please focus on the important things?”

Spluttering, Clay motioned at Jeffrey. “You’re not allowed to speak to me like that. Nathan, he can’t say such things to me.”

Nathan sighed. “Answer his questions.”

Why? He said he won’t investigate it. There is a doll on the floor, dressed in wicked shoes we don’t stock, and someone dropped him off when the store was empty and locked. But instead of worrying about how someone got in here without breaking anything and without anyone seeing them, you’re asking me about what I saw on my lunch break walk, and then you get annoyed when I tell you.”

Jeffrey breathed so loudly Clay feared something was wrong with him. Maybe they should call an ambulance in case he was choking.

I am investigating, and I am asking you about the doll.”

No, you weren’t.” Clay avoided looking at Jeffrey. He didn’t do well in the presence of angry men, and the Tallman brothers were huge. Not monstrous, but well over six feet, both of them. His five-eight didn’t measure up, not to mention he’d always been scrawny.

When you reached the shop, did you notice anything out of the ordinary?”

No. I hurried up the steps because I feared I was late, and Nate would have my balls.”

Nate?”

Oops. “Nathan. I feared Nathan would be annoyed with me.”

Can’t imagine why.” Jeffrey’s mutter had him narrowing his eyes. Fucker. He waited for another question.

So you were late?”

No. I was here before Nathan.”

But left before him.”

Clay nodded.

And when you arrived, the door was unlocked.”

No. It was locked. I unlocked it and stepped inside.”

Jeffrey wrote something on the notepad for the first time during their conversation. “And then what?”

Then I saw the Victorian button boot. French heels are delightful. I wish everyone would wear them.”

Jeffrey groaned, but he believed the sound coming from Nathan was one of amusement. Maybe.

And after you’d noted the French heel?”

Then I questioned my prejudice concerning gender and footwear since it was clear it was a male-presenting person splayed on the floor.”

Of course. Fucking queers.”

Hey! You can’t talk to me like that! I want to report you. Who do I speak to?”

I can. I have a brother who is queer, so it’s okay.”

Clay gaped at him. Was he completely insane? Had to be. “It does not give you the right to say things like that.” And did he have more brothers? Maybe their mother had more children than Nathan and Jeffrey. He’d only known about the two of them since they were Walter’s children. Or maybe Jeffrey made things up.

After you’d admired the heel and contemplated your core values, what did you do?”

Call for Nathan.”

You called for Nathan?”

Hell yeah, I didn’t want to move any closer to the corpse.”

So you called for Nathan? You didn’t think Nathan was the killer?”

Clay stared at him. Damn. “Eh… no.”

You’re the only two people with a key to the shop. There is, what you believe is a murdered—”

Dead. There was no blood so… I didn’t think he was…” Had he believed he’d been murdered? He couldn’t remember.

There is, what you believe, a dead man on the floor. Naked. And you don’t suspect Nathan of having killed him?”

Clay looked at Nathan. Damn, he’d be the first to die in a horror movie, wouldn’t he? He would go into the basement to check what caused the strange noises. “No. I… eh… hoped he’d be able to deal with it.”

And next?”

Nathan came through the door and accused me of murder.”

Nathan huffed. “I didn’t accuse you of murder.”

You said: What the fuck did you do? in an accusing tone.”

Jeffrey scrawled something on the notepad. “And then?”

Then a customer came in and screamed, and Nathan went to check for a pulse.”

How long had you been in the shop by then?”

Clay shrugged. “A minute, two at the most.”

A couple of minutes, and you hadn’t checked for a pulse?”

Wincing didn’t help much. “No… I… eh…” He sent a pleading look at Nathan, but he was watching Jeffrey, not Clay.

Two minutes next to a body, and you didn’t check if he needed medical care.”

He studied the tiny blue flowers on the toe of his boots. Tomorrow, he should wear his Decayed Roses Docs, blue was too cheerful.

The snap of the notepad being closed made him jump, then Jeffrey crouched and grabbed the doll. “Right, I’ll let you know if anything comes up.”

Clay gaped at him. “But you didn’t ask Nathan any questions.”

Jeffrey shrugged, flung the doll over his shoulder, and headed toward the door. What the fuck?

After the door had closed behind Jeffrey, Clay stared at it for several seconds.

Perhaps you should take the rest of the day off.”

What?” He couldn’t afford to take a day off.

Go home.”

Why?”

You’ve had a shock, and there are no customers here.”

Right now, but there would be customers later, and Nathan didn’t know shit about shoes.

Go home, Clay.”

No, I don’t want—”

Go home.”

Fucker. Clay pushed the door open and stepped out on the sidewalk.

Guest Post | The Panther’s Escape by Holly Day

Have you seen that The Panther’s Escape is out?!? 😁 A few days ago, the fifth story in the Within the Walls series, The Panther’s Escape was released, and I’m so excited. The day we’re celebrating is National Snuggle a Chicken Day, because why not?  

Despite being a chicken owner, I have to say I don’t snuggle chickens all that often, but to each their own.   

In this story, we have Namir who is one of the blood slaves who were saved in the first book in the series. He’s keeping to himself and doesn’t want to talk to anyone. One night he finds a chicken in his garden and brings it inside, convinced he can teach it to become housebroken.   

Jinx lives in Oakmouth, a different community from the one in Myrfolk. He has a daughter and he wants out. His daughter is different, and different isn’t accepted in Oakmouth, so he’s hoping for a place in Myrfolk. But one day, the leader of the Oakmouth community kidnaps Jinx’s daughter and says he won’t get her back until he kills Gertrude, the Myrfolk leader.  

Jinx goes to Myrfolk, and there he meets Namir.   

It’s a 58k paranormal romance with chickens, blackmail, and PTSD. As always, I suggest reading these books in order. There is a new couple in every story, but people from previous stories appear and the community is close-knit.   

The Panther’s Escape

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Are you willing to commit murder to save your daughter?

Jinx Kilduff is in trouble. Big trouble. The leader of his community wants him to take out Gertrude, the leader of the Myrfolk community. To get Jinx to follow through, he kidnaps Jinx’s daughter. Jinx doesn’t want to kill Gertrude. He’s been trying to get her to take him in so he can escape the life he’s trapped in. Now he’s forced to kill her instead.

Namir Klossner wants to be left alone. He doesn’t want anyone in his space, so no one is more surprised than him when he offers a panther shifter from another community to stay in his guestroom. There is something about him that makes Namir want to keep him close. Mostly it’s because he doesn’t trust him, but he’d be lying if he said that was the only reason.

Jinx will do whatever he has to do to get his daughter back, but maybe there is a way other than to kill Gertrude. And maybe, just maybe, he can stay with Namir. There is nothing Namir hates more than vampires, so when he hears Jinx has a daughter and she is kept prisoner by one, he swears to do everything in his power to get her back … and if he succeeds, maybe Jinx will want to stay with him.

Buy links:

Paranormal gay romance: 58,367 words

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Chapter 1

Namir Klossner was stalking around his garden in the dark. The ground glittered in the cold. They had had a few mild days where the snow had melted, temporarily, and now it was a clear night, and the temperature had dipped well below freezing. The moon hung low in the sky, casting the world in a yellow light.

Everything was quiet.

It was an illusion. Namir was aware of people patrolling the walls not too far away from where he was, but silence had wrapped around the garden, and he was alone. Isolated. Abandoned.

He wanted to be.

He didn’t want anyone in his space. There had been too many people in his life already. They’d never seen him, hadn’t cared about him. All they wanted was his blood and his body.

He’d been sure he’d die a slave—had wanted to die. Death was the quickest way out.

It hadn’t happened.

Gertrude, the supernatural community’s leader, raided The Virgin Drop, the blood bar where he’d been kept. She’d brought him here, inside the walls, together with Rue, Chaton, and Zeeve, three fellow blood slaves. She’d saved them from the vampires, given them a place to live, a roof over their heads, and food on the table.

He didn’t know what to do about it.

Was he supposed to pay her back somehow? He hadn’t wanted to be saved. Now he’d be forced to live with the memories instead of fading away.

He’d been ready to die, had prepared for it, longed for it. She’d ruined his plan, had stolen his escape, and he didn’t know how to be.

Who was he now?

Not the same as before. What if he built a life and everything was taken from him again? He couldn’t live through it one more time, so he kept to himself and waited. Counted the days and looked out of the windows of the house at the people moving around on the street.

There weren’t many people moving around in this part of the community unless it was crate day. Chaton had the house next to his, but he didn’t live there. He and Rue had turned the entire yard, both the back and the front, into a vegetable garden. Nothing grew in January, but twice a week, they handed something out in small wooden crates to every community member.

Namir never went to get his, but either Rue or Chaton would give it to him anyway. He should go, spare them the extra work, but he couldn’t make himself.

The problem was both Chaton and Rue had hooked up with vampires. Namir hadn’t come out of his years at The Virgin Drop the same as before, but he didn’t think he was messed up enough to voluntarily be in the same room as a vampire ever again. Why choose to relive your worst moments in life?

Chaton had stayed with him in this house when they’d first come here, and Namir could’ve handled it better. Part of him was feeling guilty about how he’d acted. If he hadn’t been such a dick to Chaton, he might not have been willing to hook up with a vampire to get away from him.

That was saying something. Move in with a monster to escape Namir. Not his proudest moment, but it was for the best.

He didn’t want anyone in his space, but it wasn’t Chaton’s fault Gertrude had placed them in the same house.

She’d most likely done it to make them feel safe. After having lived in a cage, a house was overwhelming. He hadn’t left his room for months other than to use the bathroom and eat. Though, he hadn’t had much of an appetite.

Then Chaton had moved out, and first, he’d been ecstatic. Or, he hadn’t had any strong feelings, but he’d been relieved, only to then realize how many of his thoughts he could hear in the silence. He could hear his heart beat, hear every breath he took.

He crept low on the ground close to the leafless currant bushes. There was a light on in the neighboring house, in the little boy’s room, he believed. He wasn’t sure if it was the boy’s room, but he’d seen him in the window. A human family.

Gertrude had told him it was a woman and her two children. The father had abused her and maybe the children too. Gertrude wasn’t sure. She had warned him of them coming the day before they’d moved in, but then Gertrude had said it would only be for a month or two. It had been two months now, and they were staying.

Namir hadn’t spoken to them. If he had to have neighbors, he preferred a human woman. She wouldn’t bite him, and he didn’t think she’d assault him. It would be hard for her to do anything to him since physically she was so much weaker than he was, and after having watched her with the kids, he didn’t think she was the kind of person who would try.

You could never be sure, though.

He let out a low growl and pushed his claws into the frozen ground, then a scent caught his attention. It was new. He inhaled and turned in the direction of it. Never had he come across it in his garden.

He sniffed again and stalked toward it. He kept his body close to the ground, his paws touching the surface without making any sounds. Moving past the garden bed where Rue had planted some weird kind of plants last summer, he slipped closer to what he believed were raspberries.

There, tucked in by the shed, was a bird. He moved closer. The ice crystals on the black feathers glimmered in the moonlight and for a moment, Namir’s heart stopped. It had frozen to death. Poor bird, all alone in the world. He nudged it with a paw, then skidded back when it jerked awake and squawked at him.

It tried flapping away but wasn’t successful. Shit. It must be half dead. He shifted into human form and shuddered as the icy air wrapped around his naked skin.

Come here, birdie.” He tried grabbing it, but it made another sound and rushed straight into the bare raspberry canes only to fall back from the impact. Ouch.

He grabbed it, but it only made it struggle more. “Shh… I’ve got you. Easy now.” He wrapped an arm around it, so it couldn’t use its wings, and hugged it to his chest. “See, it’s not too bad.”

It settled, tilted its head, and blinked its black eyes at him. The head and throat had black and almost orange feathers, the beak was dark, and the rest of the body had black feathers. This couldn’t be a wild bird. He held it away from his body to be able to see better, and it instantly began to flap its wings.

Easy, easy.” He shivered and brought it closer to his body again. “Let’s go inside.”

It had to be one of Ty’s chickens. He’d never spoken to Ty or Jagger, seen them, but never spoken to them. He’d heard the roosters crow, and Gertrude had told him Ty had chickens. But were there black chickens?

He’d seen white and brown. His grandmother on his father’s side had raised chickens, but he didn’t remember much about it. He’d only been a boy when she’d passed, and leopards didn’t maintain close contact with each other once they were adults, so he hadn’t seen his grandmother many times.

Walking into the kitchen, he put the chicken on the floor and went to get dressed. He wasn’t one to strut around the house naked, and he couldn’t now when someone was watching him. He put on a pair of sweats and a sweatshirt in a hideous orange color Gertrude had gotten him.

He didn’t care. She’d bought all his clothes, and he preferred it when she got him something in black or blue, but he hadn’t said anything about it.

Hurrying back into the kitchen, he stared at the bird. It was slowly walking around, its head bobbing with each step as if trying to look around corners.

Hi there.”

It stared at him, still walking.

Are you hungry?” Shit, did he have anything he could feed it? He hurried over to the pantry. The shelves gaped mostly empty. Gertrude would be by any day now with a bag of groceries. She’d stopped asking what he wanted since he never gave her any answers and got him the basics. It was okay. Better than okay.

Rolled oats. Normally, he made oatmeal for breakfast since it was quick and easy, and Gertrude kept buying oatmeal. It was cheap, he guessed.

He grabbed a handful and sprinkled a few on the floor by his feet. The chicken instantly dove for them. The beak tapped against the kitchen floor tiles.

Good?”

It ignored him.

Are you thirsty?”

He took a step in the direction of the cupboard with the bowls, and the chicken edged away from him, still mostly focused on the oats. Moving in slow motion, he grabbed a small dipping bowl, filled it with water, placed it on the floor near the chicken, and dropped the last of the oats next to it.

Then he walked to the bedroom to get his phone. The bird ignored him when he entered again, so he sat on the floor and Googled. He searched for black chicken and stared at the result. There were some pitch-black chickens, almost blueish black. They didn’t look real. Several of the photos showed black chicken meat and it had him scrunching his nose.

He scrolled farther down the search results only to pause at a photo of a bird looking like his new companion. He clicked it, but when photos of lots of different-colored chickens appeared, he jumped back to the search result. He found one about the same as his bird but was a little too round. Black Cochin. Pretty birds. Maybe. He didn’t know what made a bird pretty, but he liked the fluffiness. It didn’t matter, they didn’t look like his bird.

He found an article with the headline: 15 Black Chicken Breeds and clicked it. Fifteen. Insane. He didn’t know what he’d expected, maybe that there would be fifteen chicken breeds altogether, or five.

Jersey Giant. It wasn’t his bird, but damn. They were huge. Next was something so puffy it couldn’t see properly—Silkies. Luckily, his bird didn’t look like a pom-pom. He might have left it to freeze to death if it had.

Australorp.” He said it out loud simply to test it out. Nope. It didn’t fit, and it didn’t have the orange feathers his bird had.

Ameraucana.” He almost dislocated his tongue trying to sort the letters out. But it had a beard, which was cool, and he read their eggs were blue. It didn’t matter, it wasn’t his bird.

Next up was a Minorca which looked… Nah, it had white cheeks and… His bird was way prettier.

Java. Who named a breed Java? He didn’t drink coffee, but was it too late for tea?

Black Copper Marans. Namir stared at the image then at his bird, then at the image again. “Are you one of these?” He turned the phone to show… her? She didn’t care. She was busy tapping Morse code against his tiles.

He studied the photo. Yeah. She was a Black Copper Maran girl. The boys had more orange feathers.

We need a name. Mara.” He frowned at her. He’d read a book once, many years ago, about creatures who could trap you in a nightmare. They were called Maras. Maybe it was what had happened to him. He was trapped in a nightmare.

Mara. It’s a good name, right?”

Mara tilted her head at him. Her dark eyes seeing into his soul. Then she pooped on the floor.

Ugh. You can’t do that.” He got up and grabbed some paper tissues to clean up. “You need to tell me when you need to go, so I can let you out.”

She scratched her claws on the tiles and pecked at something invisible.

Should he leave her in the kitchen for the night? Maybe it was best she came with him to his bed. He didn’t want her to be cold.

* * * *

Jinx Kilduff kicked off his shoes and more or less crawled from the hallway to the ratty couch in the living room. The house was cold, but he didn’t want to turn up the heat due to the costs, and he didn’t have the energy to make a fire.

He’d been to see Gertrude Pechtold again. She was the leader of the community in Myrfolk. He’d reached out to her back in the fall, and offered her, what he believed, a pretty sweet deal, but she’d been hesitant.

It was all a hoax, which might be why. She wasn’t stupid. Or, it wasn’t a hoax, the job was real, but the reason why he’d offered it to the Myrfolk community wasn’t what he’d let on.

Here in the Oakmouth community, they raised beef. They had a deal with a butcher halfway to Myrfolk, and once a week, they went down there to load their trucks with boxes of meat they then delivered to a few different places.

Before, he’d had a group of men from the community doing the driving, but meat kept disappearing. Understandable. Times were hard. The winter was cold, the electricity prices were through the roof, and everyone had to eat.

But he couldn’t allow it.

He could’ve picked a different group to do the delivery. There were plenty of people in Oakmouth willing to work, and Czar, their leader, had left Jinx in charge of the meat production. He didn’t tend to the animals, but he sold the meat, organized everything to do with the butchering, and so on. He decided who got to work, and he’d given the delivery to another community.

People weren’t pleased, and he was starting to worry. He’d believed he’d be out of here by now. He hadn’t told Gertrude he was in a hurry to move, but he was in a hurry to move. He had to get out of Oakmouth, had to before something bad happened. But while Gertrude had said she wasn’t opposed to taking in another person, she hadn’t offered him a place. And she didn’t know the place needed to be for two people. He’d never told her, which might be why she always changed the topic when he hinted at moving to Myrfolk.

They had magic users in Myrfolk. Here they were shifters and vampires, but Jinx knew Gertrude had magic users. He hadn’t met any of them, and he wasn’t sure how many there were. Magic users were rare, but at least one of them was a healer, and he needed a healer. Not for himself, but with every day passing, he grew more and more worried about Ximena.

He had to get her out. Had to get her far away from here before anyone noticed. His biggest fear was that she was latent. Latent cats didn’t live long, and certainly not in Oakmouth.

Jinx hoped it was something curable, but he feared it wasn’t. Her scent was wrong, and while he didn’t believe Czar had noticed yet, Oakmouth wasn’t a community for the weak.

Most shifter children could change shape a couple of months after birth. He hadn’t known Ximena existed until Lorna had dropped her off at the gate in an infant car seat when she’d already been seven months old.

Jinx had looked at the black mop of hair, the round baby face scrunched in sleep, and his heart broke open to make room for her.

His daughter.

He’d never wanted children. This world wasn’t a place for the innocent. How could he willingly create a life when knowing what his child would be forced to endure?

But willingly or not, there she was. A gift. The meaning of his existence. The reason he had to get out.

Daddy?”

Ximena stood in the doorway, sleep-rumpled and with her pink security blanket hugged to her chest. She was too old to have it, but whenever he’d tried to take it from her, she’d protested, and it was rare she protested anything, so he’d given in. Who would know? It was only a blanket.

Hi, baby.” He held his arms open for her, too tired to get up. “You should be sleeping.” Arlene had texted him a couple of hours ago to say Ximena had fallen asleep, and she was leaving. She wasn’t the most reliable babysitter, but he didn’t dare ask any of the shifters. They’d notice her scent right away.

I heard you.”

He hugged her to his chest. She often said she heard him. If she could hear him when she was asleep and he snuck in, she had to have enhanced hearing. He was a cat. He didn’t make any sounds.

I’m sorry I woke you.”

She didn’t reply, instead, she put all her weight on him and went lax. Jinx smiled and ran a hand over her head, removing a few strands from his face before kissing her scalp. “Did you have a good day with Arlene?”

No.”

No? Why?” He tried looking at her, but she had her face buried against his throat.

She didn’t reply. She wasn’t much of a talker. He believed she spoke well for a four-year-old when she spoke. More than well. She knew many words and her sentences were grammatically correct, sometimes more elaborate than an adult’s, but where other children he’d met babbled, she was quiet. He wondered if it had anything to do with her… impairment.

He had to get her out of there. Had to get them both out. Gertrude was his only chance, but he didn’t dare tell her the truth. Myrfolk was different from Oakmouth in more ways than having a healer, but he didn’t think they’d take in a… differently abled child.

He had to get Gertrude to take him in, and then take whatever punishment she meted out when she realized he hadn’t been honest with her. Hopefully, she wouldn’t punish Ximena.