Update | Still Here

Life is what happens when you’re busy making other plans. 

-John Lennon

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I opened a Scrivener file this morning. I didn’t write more than 124 words, but I read through what I’d written so far. Before today, I haven’t written a single word in about two weeks, and it’s not good for my sanity. I’ve been unable to focus and have only been doing the absolute musts on my to-do.

It’s not a good feeling, but what are you gonna do? I’ve spent time with my mother both in her home and in the hospital, so I haven’t written much. Every week is a decline, and we’re at a stage now where it feels as if it’s moving fast downhill. I have no idea what timeframe we’re talking, I don’t know if it’ll go in stages or a constant slope to the end.

What I know is that Mum’s changed. And I’m probably changed too.

Most of us will have to face the failing health of our parents at some point in our lives. I thought I’d have another twenty years before I’d be here, but we don’t get to pick our fates.

I have written 18.214 words this month, which is less than I wanted to but more than I thought I had, so…

My total is 322.335. I think I should be able to make 350.000 this year, but I’m not gonna set any goals right now. One day at a time. If I write, I write, and if I don’t, I don’t.

Update | What Are We Doing Again?

Courage does not always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, ‘I will try again tomorrow.

– Mary Anne Radmacher

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If you’ve hung around me anywhere, you probably know September was a nightmarish month for me. My mother-in-law passed away, and we learned my mother has liver cancer that’s incurable and inoperable. So I’ve mostly been trudging through black sludge.

My brain hasn’t been with me at all, and I don’t really know what I’ve been doing. Mostly, I’ve been operating on autopilot.

Summing up my words, I was shocked to see that I’ve written 34.815. I’ve felt so disconnected, and the story I’m working on will need so much editing to even make sense, but yay for words, right?

It leaves me with a total of 304.121 words, which is 121.65% of my goal of 250.000, so yay! My daily word count is 1105.

Now I just need to delete a heap of them and rewrite. Sigh.

In the last Update post, I wrote that there will be a story out in December, but it looks like it’ll be out in November instead 🥳

Update | Bring out the Bubbly!

“You measure the size of the accomplishment by the obstacles you have to overcome to reach your goals.”

Booker T. Washington

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It’s update time!!!

According to WordKeeperAlpha, where I log my words, I made the 250.000 words I set out to do on August 7th. I don’t know if that’s true since I don’t log my words every day, I do them in batches, but it could be 😊

This last month, I wrote 26.998 words, so not bad but not awesome either. My personal life is in upheaval, so I’m quite pleased with those 27k, though. Had I known, that I only needed to write two more words to make 27k, I would have, but as I said, I log the words in batches, so I didn’t know I was that close.

I’ve written 269.306 words total during 2022, and this morning, I signed the contract for Holly’s 12th story of the year, so yay! That’s two goals reached in the same month 🥳

My daily word count is 1090, which I’m also quite pleased with since I have days when I don’t add words at all. I haven’t written a word for close to a week now, only done some edits, so that’s pretty great.

When my brain starts working again – if it ever will – I’ll reevaluate my plan. The original one was to write some short stories for Ofelia, but the harsh reality is that Ofelia hardly sells anything, so my time might be better invested if I start on Holly’s 2023 instead. Ofelia has a story coming out in December, and while it’s a long wait… I guess this is one of the downsides of having two names. But, I’ll sit down and make a plan when I have some brainpower.